Well if you know me I am very afraid of spiders lol but on a deeper note something big I am afraid of is being a let down as a mother. I was young when I had the girls and being a single mother to twins puts a big stigma on me. That I will be low income uneducated and struggle to provide for my family. I am doing what I can for this not to happen. School is a killer. It is so hard for me to study for a class because the time allowed for it is after 9:00 usually and that is the time I am tired and want to go to bed. I am determined to get this degree if it kills me. I have but too much time and effort to not come out with a Bachelors Degree plus the opportunities that it can open for a job. I can't wait for the day that I am married, a college graduate and steady on my feet that will be a great achievement for my family. i am def not a perfect mother but there are things I am working on to help me as well as my little ones. Another thing I am afraid of is being alone. I am surrounded by family at the house but when my girls are up with their dad is a lonely feeling. They are my 3 favorite people and it's hard to be without them. Many have said it would be nice for the break but after you have done it every other weekend for years it's not all that great because I'd rather be with them. They are my best friends and since im lacking in the friend dept they are really the things I love to surround myself with. I am so excited my sister has moved home. Having her here makes things much better and need to get my time in before she leaves for 18 months. I have seen pretty much all my friends get married and awaiting that chapter in my life. Being 45 mins from your partner is rough, but it's livable just def not ideal since I see him usually once a week. I'm grateful for him in my life and take any time I can with him.
Mothers day 2011- my babes are such a fun age right now. They are proud of their momma and it was fun to do breakfast at school for mothers day and all the stuff they make me. Puts the biggest smile on my face :) they did give me a cold on mothers day but seeing them at church singing to me made up for that. I love my little girls so much. Children are truly a blessing!!!!
Moms and Muffins day at school :)
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do you remember the funeral we had for the spider? ;) hahahah good times
yes and then in the morning it was gone!!!!! right out of the corndog box hahaha
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