Day three....

Pet peeves.....

I almost dont even want to do this post..... from other blogs I have read I kinda feel like this blog is a space for someone to write all the things they dont like about other people. I can see that as being a pet peeve but thats definitely not how I want to write this blog, so I am deciding to write pet peeves I have with myself....

....i have said this before but I am too sensitive, dont get me wrong its not always a bad thing but there is a time and place to be sensitive and I do need to build a little bit thicker skin so that things dont hurt me so much that really shouldnt be

.... i stress at things or situations that I shouldnt. I am in a class that is helping me so much with this. Realizing that its me doing it to myself has really started to change my mindset on it, and relaxation exercises have really helped.

.... since having children I have a harder time being on time to things. I am not always late but my mom instilled being punctual since I was young and its definitely something I would like to work harder on.

....my self confidence level. It has never been where I want it to be and only person who can change that is me. Not worrying to much what others are thinking or saying about me. I know my self worth I just need to be better at showing others this as well.

....PROCRASTINATION.... man school work is so hard for me to not procrastinate. This semester has been actually pretty good in that department but something I always have to keep working on so that I get that paper declaring me a graduate!!

....having effective time management. I had to do an assignment for that in class and I noticed that if I have better time management so much more is done and accomplished. Thats always a great feeling!

....not voicing my opinion. I dont always have a hard time with that depends on the person or situation I am in. Everyone else has an opinion and I should be fine and not feel guilty or think it will start something with someone.

i know there are many more but for the time being this will be all.... got to get back to what I was doing :)

ITS FRIDAY!!!!

dAy TwO......

What is my favorite movie......

Ever since I was in middle school and saw Save

the Last Dance it has been my favorite movie. I could sit and watch it over and over agai

n for hours... well i actually have done this.... lol I love movies and have many that I love. Like I said yesterday in my post there are 3 other favorite movies that I have. Love and Basketball, The Wood and Brown Sugar. I watched The Wood for the first time in Brandon's apartment when we went to snow so it kinda turned into "our movie." Then we found Love and Basketball and Brown Sugar and those 2 have also become "our movies." I love

having pretty much the same cast or actors in these movies. It actually brought us to our song which is This Womans Work by Maxwell. I love that song!!! So when I am asked what my favorite movie is its a little hard to give a straight answer cause 4 of them are really all my favorite :)

30 days of blogging

I wanted to start this the other day after my other blog but got to busy to do so, so here I am with time so might as well start. I saw this on my friend Chelsie's blog and since I said in my blog yesterday that I want to blog more it is a good way to get going for 30 days. I like how everyone is doing this... its nice to get to know your friends and loved ones just a little more :)

Here's the list of things...

day {1}: recent picture of yourself and 15 interesting facts about you

day{2}: your favorite movie

day {3}: pet peeves

day {4}: meaning behind your blog name

day {5}: your parents

day {6}: your celebrity crush

day {7}: an animal you'd love to keep as a pet

day {8}: a hobby of yours

day {9}: a place you love

day {10}: a person you love

day {11}: favorite tv shows

day {12}: photo of you taken ten years ago

day {13}: something you're afraid of

day {14}: your makeup bag

day {15}: your family

day 16: something you're looking forward to

day {17}: favorite book

day {18}: what makes you different from everyone else

day {19}: something you bought recently

day {20}: favorite song

day {21}: your friends

day {22}: a place you've traveled to

day {23}: favorite recipe

day {24}: favorite photo

day {25}: plans/dreams/goals you have

day {26}: a habit you wish you didn't have

day {27}: a picture of you last year and a picture of you now

day {28}: something that stresses you out

day {29}: put your ipod on shuffle, what are the first ten songs

day {30}: photo of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

this will be interesting..

DAY {one}

15 interesting facts about me....

one. I have lived in 5 homes since i was born. Its crazy that i have lived in Utah now for 14 years. It has flown by.

two. I have been a college student for 6 years and still dont have a Bachelors degree...i had slacked a little in the beginning and having children definitely slows down that process but im almost close to having only 3 semesters left till I graduate!!!

three. I am a sucker for romance. Whether it be on tv and movies, or books, or music or the real world. I am a sap and love LOVE!

four. i am a very sensitive person. I have always been that way. I definitely need a bit tougher shell. I care so much for people and their happiness. Have always been someone who will do anything I could or think of to help out someone I love and care for.I like being a caretaker. .

five. Brown Sugar, Love and Basketball and The Wood. Its simple I am in love with these movies. Brandon is the only person I love to watch them with. They always remind me of him :)

six. I never thought Id get a second chance at love with the same person. I feel lucky to have him by my side.

seven. I have a new obsession of necklaces. My co workers friend makes them and I cant get enough. I need them in every color.

eight. I am proud to be a mother. Life never happens how you think it will and being a single mom was definitely not something I planned but man do my children make me grateful for the things I have. They amaze me and I am blessed that those 2 little girls are nice and healthy :)

nine. I have 2 amazing parents. They work hard for what they have. My sister did a post about Valentines Day and I love how much love my dad has for my mom, he sure is the romantic kind of husband! I am grateful to them everyday for all that they have done for me and my children. I dont know where i'd be without them.

ten. I am obsessed with cooking shows. I love the food network. I love it more when I get to watch it with my dad. He is a good cook and to see him get excited about it excites me.

eleven. To go with the last fact I want to go around and eat at every place in Utah that has been mentioned on Diners Drive Ins and Dives. I also want to write in my favorite spot Mokis. Maybe they will think its as great as I do :)
twelve. I was in my first car accident that was not my fault yesterday. Thank goodness it was as small as it was. I am grateful that she was not going fast.

thirteen. I am grateful for the friendships that I do have. I have gone through many and some a lot harder to end than others but I am grateful for a friend to trust, laugh with and care for.

fourteen. I am lucky to have a job. With all the economic stuff going on I am grateful for the last 2 years to be employed with a steady paycheck. I have seen loved ones struggle with this and I pray everyday that they will find a job.

fifteen. Last one, I have finally have a good sav ings underneath me and cant wait for it to grow and move into my own place. I love my parents but I want so badly to have a home of my own. I know we will miss having family around all the time but absence makes the heart grow founder right? lol It will be a great change in mine and my daughters life.

A new start.....

I want a new start in the blogging world. I have been good and bad at it but really want to get back in the habit. My sister is an amazing blogger I only wish I could sound like her when I write. Another thing she took from me at birth lol my creative gene. My good friend Chelsie always asks when I will post so here Chels this is for you!!!

This year has been alright to me so far. I have been in a funk that Im trying to get out of. Little things as a person I am trying to do better to make me happier and eliminate stress in my life. Stress is my downfall. I stress over the dumbest things and I literally laugh at myself when I sit back and look at myself. I am in this stress management class that is a life saver. You know when a teacher tells you this will be the best and most influential class you ever take and you look at them like you are crazy? My teacher said this at the beginning of the semester and he couldn't be anymore right. Why am I causing myself so much stress. Stress is so internal I never even realized it. It is a blessing to work on and to improve my stress levels cause lets be real with each other im crazy when I am stressed. Slowly getting better.

The Babes: Well I should be saying 13 year olds. Boy do my girls have sass. They are learning and the way they light up when they tell me the new things they learned is priceless. They recently started going to a new preschool/daycare that they are loving. They love the idea of going "to school" and seeing their friends!!! They are everywhere these days. Want to know everything and definitely do everything THEMSELVES lol, but they are the best cuddle buddies and daughters a girl could ask for!!

The Family: I have really enjoyed spending a lot more time with my family these last 4 or 5 months. Its hard to tell that my sis is at Utah State due to the fact I think she has only spent a few weekends up at school this semester, but I am not complaining, having a best friend around the house quite frequently is a great thing. She is such an amazing woman ( I can say woman now that she is 20 lol.) I look up to my baby sister so much. She has so much faith and unconditional love that I sit back in awe. These last couple weeks she has been getting papers ready to serve an LDS mission. I am so proud and excited for this next chapter in her life. This last week I have thought about how much I am really going to miss her. It still is early and she isnt leaving tomorrow but the thought of her missing things in my life and not having a best friend around all the time is saddening, but it is a great opportunity for her and she will be a great missionary so I just have to say BRING IT ON!!!! I love you sissy!!

I know, I know im def lame status for not posting!!!

So This has been my longest time not blogging yet....ill just sum it up SCHOOL STUNK This spring!!! I am not made for business classes....was at the library till about 10 or 11pm most nights I was down at school and it still did not really benefit me because I did not get very good grades.

Since then I have switched schools and majors. I am now at Weber State and studying Child and Family Studies. I just keep chugging along on trying to get a Bachelors Degree.

My babies are developing before my eyes....new things every day... their current loves are GUMMY BEARS....DORA.......trains...airplanes....dragons....dinosaurs....princesses.....castles....DISNEYLAND......SLIDES.......Treats of any kind.....taking your order...the list goes on....

I love that they know their colors, numbers one to ten....and a ton of fun things in sign language.... they come home every week with new ones to show me

They have gone to the zoo, This is the Place Heritage Park, on a train, a carousel, Farmers Market and love every bit of it! We are finding new things to keep our summer filled with fun since I start school in 14 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Summer went by so fast!

That is a very brief post to catch up and will be making a big effort to post weekly!


Here is a link for pictures from this summer so far

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=181221&id=679971709&l=64c0cee576


We love you all!! :)

Jess and the girls

R-S-V- not my friend

RSV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So if having sick kids since October wasnt bad enough Layna was diagnosed with RSV last Tuesday. I have never seen her so miserable and unactive since she was laying in the incubator. It was so hard to see her so sick. Took her to the doctor Tuesday was diagnosed but by Thursday morning I had seen no improvment and she still had a fever. I called the doctor and they told me to take her to Primary Childrens for a chest x ray. So Brandon, me and the girls went up there and finally talked to a doctor who did the x ray, they deep suctioned her, which if you havnet ever seen is so hard to watch your child, but we were about to be sent home they just wanted to check her oxygen levels once more. She was about 85 when normal is 94-96. she was not ok....they put oxygen on her and said we needed to be admitted into the hospital....about 2 2-1/2 hours later we finally got a room. Lets just say we went through a lot at the hospital bunch of medication, oxygen and time laying in bed with this sick little girl.....WOW is she a fighter though.....she gets through anything she comes up against... We were discharrged Sunday night at 6:15 started to drive home and couldnt find and pharmacys open, but when I was almost home found a Walgreens open on 21st so went back there and waited more than an hour for her prescriptions then finally got home.....CAM HUGGED LAYNA SO MUCH>>>MELTED MY HEART! they missed each other so much....we did video chat a couple times from the hospital so they could see each other. Last thing to do that night was get oxygen set up. Called the guy and he was in Payson and that it would be a couple hours....it was already 9:00 luckily someone else was at my house by 10:00 when she was starting to fall asleep.Tonight should be our last night on oxygen im crossing my fingers it is and we can get healthy and be done with this VIRUS!!!!

CAMBRIE---- i think had RSV but a very small case of it....she was never tested but her lungs and cough made me to believe she did....took her to Alta View to be deep suctioned...remember not a fun thing! but she is feeling better as well..... please sun come out

here are some pictures.....love you



http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=154785&id=679971709&l=7dd9d364cf

too much too too much........

All i can say is WOW i have let this go for too long.....Life has just been so crazy never anytime to Breathe......!

December-
Was a good month besides the sicknesses.... I love everything about Christmas and the season it was fun to be around the girls and all of the decor and love....The girls got a horrible stomach virus that lasted 10 days clear into Christmas :( It was horrible and I hope to not have one of those outbreaks anytime soon....They gave it to me the day before my birthday and I was feeling so awful. Im glad my birthday ended up pretty decent with time with friends and family. Christmas Eve was very fun after we were done visiting the doctor. I love going to Grandma and Grandpa Burgons house and all the tradition there. I dropped the girls off with there dad that night and they spent Christmas and the weekend with him and his family in town from Texas. They came home Sunday and opened their gifts from my family....They love!!! the kitchen my dad bought...Thanks dad the tradition lives on....

January.....
more colds and coughs and trips to the doctor....these girls have been hit hard this winter im hating it.....January was a very tough month for me....Trying to get my children better, trying to organize my life for the new year, trying to co parent with someone that is not my spouse, school, work, twin terrors but my pride and joy, things got too overwhelming for me and I was pretty depressed. I got stuck in a rut and was not able to pull myself out. I want what is best for my family and I try so hard to have everything perfect for my girls and its just not that way all the time.....

February.....
Things have started turning around....resolved a lot of what was bothering and disrupting my time and feeling a lot better this month than I did last month..... more appts Cam went to the dentist on the 8th what a trooper I love their dental office so cute for kids.....Layna goes on the 22nd they need separte appts too much for me and 2 two year olds at the dentist....our development lady came to do their last evaluation and I am so happy with the progress and where they are at....most things their age they have already been doing and things meant for a couple months from now they are doing as well....makes a mom so grateful when I know how much we have been through that they are learning and can learn just fine....I hope the rest of the month goes better from now on....ill post about recent activities in a min :)